can it be July already?
gosh. and it's been so long that ive blogged that for a moment there i forgot i had a blog. (is there such a thing as blogger fatigue, blogger burnout, especially for those who blog alot? i mean, it's quite a responsibility isnt it? you could see letting other portions of your life - laundry, for instance - go while you feed the blogger word beast. least that won't happen to me!)
but i digress. how am I?, long distance and near distfriends ask alot. cancer patients get asked that ALL the time. there is a sense in the non cancer world that if you turn your back for a moment on friends with cancer, they will suddenly die, or go into a coma or something. im not being critical of this...even i do it with my own friends with cancer. unfortunately, you have to actually have cancer yourself to understand that by and large, it's a very slow disease - no less dreadful for being that (dying slowly is, to say the least, a real challenge) - but still very slow. the days creep along, with very little discernible change, tho in my case ive noticed my condition seems to rise and fall in waves. had a dreadful winter, filled with antibiotics (for a swollen leg) and fatigue; now am perking up, tho no doubt the great weather plays a roll in that. i feel good enough some days to plan long road trips with my daughter, other days just "knackered" (favorite british word). overall, tho, im not my old self but a semi-invalid. i cant quite admit to being a full invalid yet, but as someone who mainly hangs around the house and cant walk much more than a block without stopping and resting, semi will do for now. mentally, i remain more on the optimistic side; im hopeful that alot of swimming this summer, taken on alot of wonderful days off, will restore both strength and spirit.
im suffering some blog guilt- not over not writing much but over not writing enough about the great friends who've sustained me and helped me out. colleen, my closest friend, deserves so much thanks that in another 100 years i couldnt thank her enough. for several months this winter, she got up extra early to come to my house and drive daughter anna to school, just so i could sleep in a bit more. this is NOT a gal who exactly hops out of bed in the a.m. yet she insisted on doing this to give me a break. what a friend....
but i digress. how am I?, long distance and near distfriends ask alot. cancer patients get asked that ALL the time. there is a sense in the non cancer world that if you turn your back for a moment on friends with cancer, they will suddenly die, or go into a coma or something. im not being critical of this...even i do it with my own friends with cancer. unfortunately, you have to actually have cancer yourself to understand that by and large, it's a very slow disease - no less dreadful for being that (dying slowly is, to say the least, a real challenge) - but still very slow. the days creep along, with very little discernible change, tho in my case ive noticed my condition seems to rise and fall in waves. had a dreadful winter, filled with antibiotics (for a swollen leg) and fatigue; now am perking up, tho no doubt the great weather plays a roll in that. i feel good enough some days to plan long road trips with my daughter, other days just "knackered" (favorite british word). overall, tho, im not my old self but a semi-invalid. i cant quite admit to being a full invalid yet, but as someone who mainly hangs around the house and cant walk much more than a block without stopping and resting, semi will do for now. mentally, i remain more on the optimistic side; im hopeful that alot of swimming this summer, taken on alot of wonderful days off, will restore both strength and spirit.
im suffering some blog guilt- not over not writing much but over not writing enough about the great friends who've sustained me and helped me out. colleen, my closest friend, deserves so much thanks that in another 100 years i couldnt thank her enough. for several months this winter, she got up extra early to come to my house and drive daughter anna to school, just so i could sleep in a bit more. this is NOT a gal who exactly hops out of bed in the a.m. yet she insisted on doing this to give me a break. what a friend....
