good things and maybes
the eagles...whooo hoo! what a fun way to spend a snowed in day....but the previous sunday was even more positive. anna and I went to the home of Maureen and Allen Ostapkovich in Marlton, super nice folks who were hosting a fund-raiser for Andy Rose, the young man with Hodgkin's I wrote about several weeks ago....friends plunked down wads of cash, shook Andy's hand and then headed to the den to watch the Vikings game on a mini car sized tv. Andy looked very bald (he bit the bullet and shaved his head) and a bit wan; but the good news is that his chemo is nearly over and he is remission. (next, radiation treatments, which have him worried, but I think they wont be that bad. mine never were.) before this fund-raiser, colleagues at the striped bass (where andy is a food runner) passed the hat and brought him a heap of cash to help with bills. Andy was overwhelmed and touched and so am I.
Im worried, too. or am I? I know Im worried but in fact doing a good job of hiding it as I wait for results from my latest CAT scan when I see my docs tomorrow before weekly (20 weeks already; hard to believe) chemo. good results will show that the chemo is continuing to work; but no matter what, I will still have cancer and will still need treatment. so it's not as if Im anticipating one of these, hooray, cancer gone!, moments. however, even small good news will be great good news. Im on the optimistic side.
Im worried, too. or am I? I know Im worried but in fact doing a good job of hiding it as I wait for results from my latest CAT scan when I see my docs tomorrow before weekly (20 weeks already; hard to believe) chemo. good results will show that the chemo is continuing to work; but no matter what, I will still have cancer and will still need treatment. so it's not as if Im anticipating one of these, hooray, cancer gone!, moments. however, even small good news will be great good news. Im on the optimistic side.
